It's my life.

CBA

These past few weeks have been hell.  Since the end of September we have had so many appointments.  They have been for me, my husband, our daughters, our son and my mother.  It has been relentless and I am so tired.

I should have been having a hair cut in a couple of days, just a trim, but I have cancelled because I am so tired and feel run down.  We are going to a family friend’s wedding on Saturday and I have to say, I really would rather stay home and chill out.  I know this sounds mean, but with the exception of us, (there will be 7 0f us, me, husband, eldest daughter and her boyfriend, younger daughter and her fiance and our son), we will only know the bride and groom - and we don’t know the bride that well. Actually, I don’t know the bride that well, husband and daughters do, but she is really nice.  

The wedding is out in the country, roughly 20 miles away and we have no idea where this place is.  We have satnav, but I am worried we won’t get to the church on time, not that it would really matter if we didn’t, but I do hate being late for anything.  Then we have to find the place where they are having the reception - a pub, I think, another 10 miles away.  Again, satnav will come in handy, but I hate not knowing where I am going.  I also hate driving home in the dark because I get blinded by the glare off other headlights, even if they aren’t on full beam.

I have really got a grump on about the whole wedding.  Most women would love the opportunity to buy a complete new outfit and go out for a slap up meal etc, but I just wish it was over.

Another thing that is weighing heavy on my mind is an appointment I have next Tuesday.  This is a diabetes eye examination, a specialist one for people who have diabetes.  I am not allowed to drive myself afterwards because the drops they put in your eyes can affect your eyesight for a couple of hours afterwards.  So I have to rely on my MIL to take me and bring me back.

I just can’t wait for these things, and another couple of appointments we have next week too, to be over so I can finally relax and chill out.

Darn people and their self importance.

I hate how a person you knew and respected gets all superior because they get some other friends. It’s like the popularity intoxicates them and they get a rush of power and start acting in this cringey way.

I know a body who is acting like his and I badly want to wallop her about the head and tell her to stop it. But I’m too nice a person to do this, I don’t want to hurt her feelings despite her hurting other people’s.

People disappoint me sometimes.

Long time abscence

It’s been a while. Had a hectic, crazy life as always. Diagnosed as a Diabetic a little while ago - type 2. Having to adjust my whole life to this latest illness. Some days are great, some are just awful.

Not had much time for witchy pursuits lately, I just haven’t felt connected to such things lately, nor have I had the time. It’s Samhain tomorrow and I have no will or desire to mark the day in any way.

I’ve had feelings like this before, but they’ve never been this bad. Ah we’ll, I guess it’ll pass.